160 days #

I miss how close we were & i miss you so much .

It has been a while i never update my blog tho . Kinda lazy hehehehhehe . The time passed really fast , it's 29th July now . So h=many things happened during the past few months . Friendship , relationship , family .

Well , SPM is coming really soon too . I guess i should start study now , dont wanna regret when i get my results too . And so i dont want to disappoint my parents , i wanna make them feel proud for my results of cause ! :)

oh and and i'm going to loud festival tomorrow . hehehehhehehe JAYCHOU ♥ !

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Her & him ,
136 days #

So i thought i'd miss you , but actually imissyou a lot .

Baby , please don 't go .

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Her & him ,
113 days #

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I want to hug you forever , like how i did today .
I want to hold your hands , i promise i wont let go no matter what happen .
I want to lie on your chest , it's really warm .
I want to spend my time w you m like how we did today .

Even we dont have much to talk but this is the moment i treasure ;
I love your smile , i love your cuddles , i love your kisses .
Can i ever ask for it again ?

I want to hold you in my arms ,
to have you once again ,
is it possible for me ?

The time today passed really fast , i wish i could spend more time w you .
And my friend actually asked whether your my boy , or not .
I wish my answer will be yes .

Possible ?
I always ask myself , what should i do ?
Continue , or leave it ?

I tried to tell you , but i cant .
I told you once , and you said i thinking too much .
and so the next day i told you i think too much .
Because i dont want you to ignore me .

Everything will change in one second ,
so it's better i keep it myself .
I wrote a really long texts .
But i got no nuts to send to you .

But i guess even i send to you ,
nothing will change & still you will tell me i think too much .

I rather keep it myself then .


105 days #

HI :) oh well , i'm lazy to update . k bai .

Ihearthim .

xoxo

♥

INSOMNIA . Good night Dongyoungbae ♥ :) #nowplaying Wedding dress ; Tae yang .

She & Him

There is always two side of me , one showing out & another one hide inside . I tell myself , i need to smile . So that people wont see that i'm hurt . Everyone thinks that i'm alright . Yes , i'm alright outside , you can see a girl w a smile everyday but you won 't know , deep inside her heart , she's crying . She cry herself to sleep every night . She want to fall asleep one night w a smile on her face , but it seems very hard for her .

She wants to fall in love w you but she is afraid of getting hurt , afraid of lies & afraid she will end up w tears in her eyes . You won 't understand her feelings , you can' t feel the pain she feel now . All you do is getting around w girls & tell her about it . She is like your toy . Whenever you need her you will look for her , or you just leave her alone in the dark .

But when she look you in the eyes , she forgot , she forgot all the pain you've caused . She appreciate the moment she spent w you in every single minute . The moment she spent w you is the moment she treasure . All she want to do is sitting beside you , watching you w a smile . She loves it , when you grab her into your arms . She will always remember you put your arms around her for the first time . She will never forget that .

She is afraid , that will be the last & goodbye kiss . She never want the kisses be goodbye kiss . She keep forgive & forget . But she knew in the end she will get hurt . But for now , she tell herself , there is still a chance to be w him . She wants to tell him how much she miss him , she wants to tell him how much she love him . But she can 't . She know he won 't love her back . She rather hide her feelings because she know once she tell him , he will ignore her & not talking to her . Everything will change in one second .

She always control herself for not talking to him . Because she want him to text her first . Even it's just a minute , at least she' ve crossed his mind . Everyday her phone ring , she tell herself it 's not you . But inside her heart , she wish to see your name in her inbox . Expectation failed everytime . She tell herself not to expect anything .

She miss you every single day , every minute . Sometimes she keep herself busy so that she wont think about him . But whenever she stop , he will pop out her mind automatically & she started to think back the times they spent together . What she got now is all memories . Maybe she is the only one who really care bout you , or maybe not . She want you to notice her but you will never notice her . Untill the day she is gone , only he will realise how much she cared for him but it 's all too late .

She love him , she miss him , Sometimes she hate him . She wants to scold him but end up nothing goes on . She want him to appreciate her but she know it wont happen . She love him for who he are but he dont even care bout her . She not guarantee that he will need her one day . She hope when she is gone , he know how to take care himself .

She love him , so much . You will never know .


xoxo .

Happy Birthday Dong Young Bae ♥

Happy Birthday Dongyoungbae ♥ Your so freaking hot & handsome . ha . Sorry for the late post . boo . Got no time to online . Well , i'm so in love w Big bang nowadays . especially this guy , Tae Yang ; Dong Young Bae ♥ He is hot isn't ? ha . & so more he is so adorable . I watched all the parody and videos , he's kinda blur tho . AHAHA .

DongYoungBae , your 23th ! We are just 6 year different , i dont mind marry you tho . AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA . k over -.- but who knows maybe it will come true :P I'm going to see him at July ! *melts* boo . He is just so adorable !

DongYoungBae , iloveyou ♥

LAZY TO UPDATE






kthxbai .

xoxo .

Pray For Japan !

Guys , you should pray for japan . Even Tae yang is doing this ! ♥ it's so sad to see that what is happening to japan . Saw the news on the tv and it's super sad seriously :'( so guys , PRAY FOR JAPAN ♥ cheer .


xoxo .

Big to the Bang ! ♥

Ohmygod ohmygod , i'm so in love with them ! Awwwwwwwwwwwwww . snoopy ! hee . so cute right them . Their songs is damn nice too ! i listen for more than 100 times per day . hahahahahahhahaha ! ♥

just wanna update my blog . kay thats all . kthxbai .


xoxo

So Excited !

Jay chou is having concert at Bukit Jalil now . okay i suppose to go today also but plan failed cause no transport . rawr . But never mind , tomorrow i'm goingggg ! AYYYYYYAAAAAAYYYYYY . so freaking excited ! :)))


xoxo .

Ihateyou :)

Tears keep falling . I wonder why . I'm totally not in a good mood today . And so few days ago . Well , i just found out something . I dont know why you wanna lie to me . Why dont you just tell me the truth ? Hell , and yes . Your hiding a lot of things behind me . Yes , i found out and i didnt ask you cause i hope nothing will happen between us . We used to talk and laugh together , tease each other . But just , we not even talk for minutes .

Well , i admit my wrongs . I did said something wrong but i apologize . But did you reply ? No you didnt . Till i wrote something on public only you text me . So now what . you dont know what you'd did and some more can come and ask who make me mad . Why are you so stupid ?! I feel like slapping you seriously .

Just , i received your text and ask me when i'm in the mood only talk to you . WHAT ?! So funny :/ You should have know what happen right ! Ihateyou . Man , i dont need you to be in my life . It's sad to say that , but isn't it's good for me and you if we dont even know each other from the first ? I shouldn't trust you from the first . I shouldn't be so nice when i know you . I shouldn't cheer you up whenever your sad . I shouldn't help you out when you got problems .
Ps. He is not my boyf . Just a very good friend .


Okay enough of this . Another one . Friends . She is a bitch . Well , long story . Lazy to explain tho . She can fking come and scold me without reasons . Dislike people like that . My life sucks . Fuck my life seriously . Meet those people so unlucky . But nah of cause i do have some awesome friends . ha .

xoxo .

Happy Valentine's Day ♥

Okay, i know i'm a little bit late to post this but, Happy Valentine's Day to all couples. Appreciate your loves. It's hard to get a person that you love him, and he loves you too. or maybe he love you more than you love him. If you get a girl or a guy like that, dont ever hurt them, please.

To the one who got no valentine, we will call it a friendship day. so, Happy friendship day ! :) Every year we got no valentines. Dont worry, not only you, i got no valentines too. Nah not kesian la. Single is not bad tho. Well, maybe i just used to be single. Walking alone in the shopping mall, shopping alone, looking around. And yes, of cause i do see a lot couples while shopping.

Yes, dont need to ask, sometimes i do jealous bout it. ha. But not desperate okay ! I just miss the time when there's a guy be with me, holding hands, whispering at each other ears. ha. All those memories, i will keep inside true deeply my heart, forever and ever.


xoxo.

Okay, i'm lazy to blog now. maybe later on? ha.

Happy Chinese New Year :)

Happy chinese new year people :) ha. yeah. i drew the orange. ha. cute isn't? :P Well, i dont really enjoy this year chinese new year. it sucks tho :S but nah. one year once, forced myself to enjoy and yeah i did enjoy there. hee. but hell, sometimes i wish i could go back to my hometown. Cause there's damn a lot of stars there! Unlike here. no stars at all.

Maybe you don't understand the feelings. But awwwwwwwwwwwwwww. so sweet ya know. i love the feelings <3>


ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, this is the group picture on that day! ha. the BARBEQUE PARTYYYYYYY! it's a very big family tho :) i love you guyss <3>HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LOO JEN-NING AND QUEK EE SHEN. :)


Okay, so, Valentines days is coming O: well, another year i'm celebrating alone, again. HAHAHHAHA. nah i'm used to it dont worry :) but awwwwwwwwwwww you know right today i went pyramid and watched movie. So we decided to eat only go meet wei ji and all up. At first, we decided to eat at MCD, so we walked to ice rink and suddenly weng kiat asked us to go to the ice rink there.

And this is what i saw thereeee ! One couples sitting in the middle of the ice rink. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Damn it. the guy is so fking romantic ! how i wish i have a romantic boyf. ha. nah joking :P The girl must be the lucky girl in the world <3

Every girl do wish they have a good and romantic boyf of cause. ha. especially valentines is coming ! Of cause ppl do hope they can celebrate the day with the love one. :) so do me. xoxo

Barbeque party tomorrow.
YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY BABYY, JAY CHOU JIE LUN ♥

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Jay Chou,
Happy birthday to you. ♥

Sorry that i can make this post on 18th january. i can't online on that day. Rawr! but nah whatever. at least i remember his birthday :P ngee. oh he's so adorable right. hee ! I dont know since when i'm in love with him, and i will love him, support him like forever of cause ♥

He's my idol, well he's not the most leng zai in the world i know, but he do have a nice voice. he know how to write songs, play piano like god okay! I dont understand why some ppl dont like him. they must be jealous. Rawr! But who cares. yet so many ppl love him like i do ! His music is just my life. ♥

Well, he's 32 this year! HAHAHHAHA. but i dont mind tho. just a damn number. Even tho he's in the early thirthy but he still so busy like last time. He's the legend. No one can replace him :) Jay Chou, iloveyouforever. ♥

AFRAID OF LOVE

Love, itself is just a word, mean nothing. But when it comes to a relationship between a boy and girl, it can be describe as a bittersweet.

Love comes from within your heart and soul. It's a feeling that you have never experienced before. You feel something which can not be explained. And it remains with you therefore it won't fade away. Love is when the two heart and soul become as one. You know when you are in love as you your heart feels it. Don't be afraid to listen to it. This is called LOVE.

We are all too afraid to love because we are too afraid to give ourselves to some one we might lose

Just because someone hurt you, doesn't mean you should give up on yourself. You are a lot more than you think you are.

Let love in, its a wonderful thing, let love in before its to late, let love in its one of life great blessings, let love in to stay forever, Don't be like me and keep love out ,don't be like me and stay in doubt ,don't be like me and when its too late, blame love and claim it did not wait.

Pain Of Love

The pain of love,
Won't break us up,
We don't need your salvation,
The pain of love,
Will never stop,
We are our own creation,
The pain of love,
Lives in our hearts,
Its deeper than the ocean,
The pain of love,
Waits in the dark,
We take it in slow motion.

And we go on,
and we go on,
and on and on and on.

We don't belong,
We don't belong,
Belong to anyone.

The pain of love will last Forever,
Promise me, promise me,
Lets celebrate the pain together,
The pain of love.


The pain of love,
In all of us,
It hits you like a hammer,
The pain of love,
We can't turn off,
Let's celebrate the drama,
The pain of love,
Don't let us crush,
We will be All forgiven,
The pain of love,
I want to touch,
Without it's not worth livin'


Refren:

And we go on,
and we go on,
and on and on and on.

We don't belong,
We don't belong,
Belong to anyone.

The pain of love will last Forever,
Promise me, promise me,
Lets celebrate the pain together,
The pain of love.



We climb the mountain,
Walk the desert,
For our love,
Let's make a pact tonight,
So we can feel this pain of Love forever.

And we go on,
and we go on,
and on and on and on.

We don't belong,
We don't belong,
Belong,belong to anyone.

The pain of love will last Forever,
Promise me, promise me,
Lets celebrate the pain together,
The pain of love.

BABI SCHOOL START TOMORROW.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ):